Why am I all tingly and hurt? I kept on telling myself that I’m fine. That everything’s going to be fine. Well now, I realized I’m either messed up or have incredibly strong willpower.They say honesty is the best policy. Honesty always works best. Know what I say? It sucks. Because most of the time, nobody wants to hear the truth. Truth is hurtful. It’s awkward. People would say, they want the truth, but do they really? I tried to deny what others have been telling me all this time. I tried to shield myself from the truth that’s been poking my eyes. As I averted from the hurtful fact, I hold on to the hope. Hope that I can change the truth. That I can make him love me. If I tried harder, maybe I can show him how much he means to me. But you can’t force someone to love you back, right? You can’t make that someone stay if he really wants to leave. Truth is effingly painful. Especially when it hits close to home. But I think I have to tell myself out loud the truth that I’ve been…

At one point, we all get addicted to something. It may be food, coffee(guilty!) or a person. Well, you can see where this is all going, right? Sure, it would be easy if it’s just a cigarette or beer. Everyone has the same addiction to those two. But what if it’s more than that? What started as a simple, normal part of your life turned out to be unpleasant because you’ve crossed the lines, how would you make yourself stop? I think the worst part in addiction, is the part that you realized you’re hooked, but you can’t make yourself quit. Even if you listed all your reasons to quit, and you can’t come up with a reason why you shouldn’t quit, you won’t. Because you can’t. Maybe it’s the feeling of getting high we can’t let go of. Even if the addiction started to hurt, we simply can’t let go for a couple of reasons. But I think, the main reason we can’t and won’t is that even if we hit rock bottom, we don’t know that we are already in there. For some people, it’s better to get hooked…

Grabbed from Marien. Write 10 things that you want to say to 10 people. Anything you want to tell them. The only rule is, DON’T STATE THEIR NAMES. 01. I’ve been going over and over again what happened between us. I came up with 3 theories. 1) You never really loved me. You have used me again and again and I let you do that to me. 2) You’re mad. And you think I want to get even with you, even if I’ve proven to you time and again how much I love you. 3) This is just a bad dream. I’ll wakeup soon. When? That, I don’t know. 02. I don’t know what is it with you,but you’re selfish. You don’t want to be alone that’s why you’re keeping me locked up with you. You knew what I’ve been through. Yet, you nonchalantly act as if it’s the most natural thing in the world. You’re selfish. You all are. 03. I hate you. I will never, ever forgive you both for what you did to me. Never. 04. I miss you so much. I miss talking to you. The thing I missed the most about you? You as my friend. You were always…